SSA everyone, meri pehli post ethe. If I make any mistakes please let me know.

There's a girl I really like and she's in my family circle (she's Punjabi too). I liked her for 1-2 years but could not talk to her much because family was always around. Few months ago I added her on facebook and we had really fun chats for the first time. From there we started texting each other everyday whenever we were free. We joked around on texts and always had fun. From there we went on lunch together I picked her from her work and we had really good lunch, we had fun but it was always scary ki koi dekh na lave lol. Then we went shopping and she helped me pick some clothes. We talked about our families and a lot of other stuff. Then we met again last week and fun again.

Even though we did all this together I never told her that I liked her and that I was in love with her. Last weekend I told her that and then she told me she liked me only as friend. I said OK cos she is a good friend and I will be happy to stay as friend with her.

Par Menu aje vi lagda ki she likes me nai taan why would she take risk and come out to lunch with me?? Her dad is strict but she still came out with me for lunch.

Problem hun eh hai ki do din ho gaye par mere koi vi text da reply nai kar rahi. I have been miserable waiting for her text. Menu lagda ki bahut vadi galti ho gayi mere ton and I feel like a villian. I feel sad that oh pata ni mere bare ki sochdi honi and that I'm only interested in on thing which is not true. Even though I didn't tell her she's the girl I really want to marry after 1-2 years. Main apne aap nu hor kise de naal soch vi nai sakda. Par hun menu lagda ki oh dar gayi and I don't know what to do.

Tunhanu ki lagda ki karna chahida?? Menu text ni kardi should I send her a message on facebook and what should I say?

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Poora band vajaya hoya hai, bukh ni lag rahi, need nai aandi, need aa jaye te uthan da dil ni karda poora din ron da dil karda. Gharde gaalan kadne ne ki pata ni ki hoya lol. Poori depression hai at the moment. Pehli vaar ik kuri de piche eh haal hoya.